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| Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
seriously, too much of damien rice made me drowned into the emo-ness. i wish i could pause the time now, so i have sufficient time to do nothing but being emo.
have you heard of the kubler-ross model? the 5 stages of grief - denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. i realized i experienced the first 4 stages except the last one. each time when i reached the depression stage, instead of moving to the last stage, i headed back to denial.
when you know that you just don't know.
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| just updating for the sake of updating. since my 'gay' good friend asked me to update, so i'm here to write this piece of crap.
so, this is going to be emo. because i'm currently clueless about my future, all i could think of is holidays. i wish someone could lead me to the correct path.
sigh, why can't i just be happy? why is it so hard to make things right?
i hate this feeling of waiting for exams to start, when i'm so tired of studying already. it's like, urgh.. whatever just hope that the exams come asap.
i'm depressed. i just received a depression checklist from beyondblue, honestly i could tick almost all the symptomos listed. well, some people do think that i'm depressed. actually, at some point i do think i'm, it's like i can't help but being depressed.
haha. sigh. sniff.
till then.
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|  yes, meredith grey. :) | | |
| Dear Lord, the world is in a complete mess and more terrifying news happening each day. You said that your grace was sufficient for me and everyone else. I pray that You will take away chaos and violence from the world. Please grant us peace, freedom and good health for all. In the name of Jesus. Amen.
seriously, are You kidding me?
Jesus is the Almighty God. And we got all sorts of disasters like the tsunami. Oh, because God gave us the greatest gift - the gift of free will. Then, some people used it incorrectly by polluting the world and, sorry to those victims (like the innocent children) who were not involved in ruining the world had to suffer the consequences. Plus, God brought a nation together after the disaster. At the expense of uncountable lives. It is really worth it. Because after all, God sent the victims to heaven.
Jesus is the Savior. And we got this ridiculous Fritzl case. And it is not enough that now we have the Australian version. But who cares how much these rapists have sinned, as long as they confess and repent their sins, oh and most importantly - have faith in Jesus Christ, and ta-daa! They got their tickets to heaven.
seriously, if at this point of time you still fail to notice the irony, all i could say is... may your God be with you.
I always tried to be neutral, because I do believe most religions lead us to the correct path. But I had enough of all these, and it is really getting on my nerves. All we can do is believe, pray, worship and always remember to give credits to your God whenever something good is happening. Because your God gives it to us. And we cannot question and blame your God whenever something bad happened. Because this has nothing to do with your God and it's all our fault. Come on, it feels like a dictator. And stop telling me your God created us human beings and love each of us, it makes me feel like a toy that your God could see how we suffer on earth, and like a slave that we need to worship your God.
So please, when you tried to give me tons of evidence to prove your God's existence, it would be more acceptable when you agree that your God is not that almighty after all. (Note: I'm writing all these on behalf of no religion.)
I totally admit that I have many sins, but I am definitely a better person than many other people on earth. But who cares, all sins are equal in your God's eyes. It is the same between a simple lie and actually killing someone. Except one. Having no faith in Jesus Christ is the ultimate sin and it condemns to eternal punishment.
So yea, I am so doomed. I am so going to hell. Now I see how great the love of your God is.
May the rest of the people who have the same so-called sin like me have joy in hell. In the name of... nothing. FML. | | |
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Is that alright with you?Give my gun away when it's loadedIs that alright with you?If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold itIs that alright with you?Give my gun away when it's loadedIs that alright with you?With you.one of my favourites, it's creepy, it's depressing, just one of those songs i would listen to during the emo period. especially lisa hannigan's voice has the haunting effect, pretty much like bjork.我想你是愛我的 我猜你也捨不得
但是怎麼說 總覺得 我們之間有了太多空白格 也許你不是我的
愛你卻又該割捨 分開或許是選擇 但它也可能是我們的緣份
the most played song on my ipod, mostly because it linked to my own story too. basically tanya's the singer i have the most songs (even stefanie sun can't beat it). sadly tanya's way too under-noticed and she definitely deserves more fame. 'goodbye & hello' is the only album that i could listen from the first track till the last, and i surely will get the album if i have a proper hifi in my room (shame that my dad actually sells audio system).  All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am So many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am But these stories don't mean anything When you've got no one to tell them to It's true...I was made for youone of the songs i love to loop when i walk alone. the song's only 3 minutes, while the distance from my house to campus mostly takes about 8 minutes, so well, i could only listen twice per journey. but well, brandi carlile's something different from the bjork type, she's a bit of alternative, a bit of rock and a bit of something else.  The storm is coming, but I don't mind. People are dying, I close my blinds. All that I know is I'm breathing now. I want to change the world, instead I sleep. I want to believe in more than you and me. But all that I know is I'm breathing. All I can do is keep breathing. All we can do is keep breathing now.believe it or not, that's all the lyrics for this song. simple but so damn true. most of the times i tried to seek ways to change the fact that i screwed up things, but deep down inside i know it's impossible, all i can do is just keep breathing. after all, it's either we choose to stay alive or we choose death.  Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enoughCause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone awayseriously you think i would miss out amy lee? well i'm not gonna choose my immortal since i kinda made it overrated here (but still it's my theme song). oh, i just love the pair of black angel wings amy lee strapped to her back in the broken mv. seriously, amy lee's hot.  Together all the while You can never say never When we don't know why Time and time again Younger now then we were before Don't let me go, (x5)and this is my latest favourite, the fray just never failed to impress me from how to save a life to this current one. aww i love issac slade now, i can't stop listening to never say never at the moment. and yes, it's my current ringtone, finally boston can come to rest.
so, everyone thinks i love all these emo songs, but wait, it is unbelievably that i love 'i gotta feeling' so much until i gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night. LOL! and yea, fergie's hubby is super good looking.
can't believe i spent almost an hour for this post. oh and i miss sam. no 'saaaaammmm' for three weeks. sniff.
till then.
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